Bridget McNulty

The end of an era.

// August 21st, 2009 // Cape Town, Life (and the living of it)

It’s 6am, and I am somehow wide awake (and have been for the last hour).

It’s still dark outside, and rainy, and it seems as if most of Cape Town is still fast asleep…. I have a cake baking in the oven (for our Indoor Yard Sale tomorrow – we’re selling off anything we don’t love for R2, R5 or R10) and, just for now, it seems as if all is at peace with the world.

I had a tough day yesterday. A check-up at the dentist (my worst thing to do!) revealed that my last dentist was a monkey, and that I had to have EIGHT fillings (my absolute worst thing to do!) I got five of them out of the way yesterday afternoon, but I was filled with dread all day about it. Silly, isn’t it? An hour and a half procedure, but from 10am to 5pm I was dreading it.
I’m going to get the last couple on Tuesday, but all of a sudden it seems more manageable… I’ve conquered the beast (of fear), I think. I also came up with an ingenious trick – I took my iPod in with me and listened to Oprah and Eckhart Tolle in conversation, and that took my mind off what was going on inside my mouth!

Today, though, everything seems much clearer, and calmer. And it feels like the end of an era. I was just standing on my balcony, listening to the rain, and it occurred to me that in a little less than a week and a half, I won’t be standing on that balcony any more. We’re packing up our lives, and the familiarity we’ve known for the last year and a bit, and venturing off into the unknown.

And it is WILDLY exciting. I’m so ready for it. But at the same time I would like to say a fond farewell to this life of mine, because it has been a good one. Living in Cape Town with my man, eating good food, watching lots of movies, taking long walks around the reservoir, chasing our dream… It’s been wonderful.

But now it’s time to end. It’s the end of an era.
Have you ever felt like that?